I was organizing some paperwork for a friend when I came across a letter. He has a business and also a recovery house for homeless, drug and alcohol addicted men. The letter was from a mom, thanking him for everything he was doing for her son. “My son was lost, spiraling downward. I would lay awake nights scared I would get a phone call – the police, the hospital – and scared I wouldn’t.” They had tried everything they could think of.
Then, he came to the recovery house. He wanted this program. He wanted the craziness of his life to end. “I’m getting my son back. A miracle is happening.” Then, I saw the signature. I know her son – or knew him. He overdosed last week.
I took an early retirement in 2012. Best thing I ever did. Not enough money (after all those years!) but the health insurance is great. Since then, I’ve been looking for my next career. I’ve been doing some editing – faculty journal articles, dissertations, etc., but that seems to have dried up. Or I’m not pursuing it correctly. I’ve done some writing, but just can’t seem to get any momentum. I’ve applied for jobs to no avail. I know God (or the Universe, or Allah, or Higher Power – whatever works) has something wonderful in store for me. Something I recently saw – When you are down and out, God is up to something. So, I quit working at it and now I’m trying to be quiet and just listen. This may be working (I’m not ready to trust it just yet), First came the affirmations, then the personal trainer, then the idea to write about this journey. I’m not writing to create a business, or inform anyone. I’m just being me for all the world to see. And, poof, I have three followers. How cool is that!
Today, I start an online writing class through Coursera. It’s taught by a Duke faculty member! I’m so looking forward to it. One of my next career options is to write creative non-fiction. That’s what this blog is, on a very low level. That’s what Jonathon Katz does when he is writing about his dogs. That’s what Thomas Friedman does in his books on global warming and global economies. I have my work cut out for me, but the course is designed to promote research backed writing. I won’t be trying out much of my material here since publishers want unpublished articles and books.
Time to hit the gym. I haven’t lost any weight yet, but I am following the program. More will be revealed…
I am on day 3 of my new eating plan and day 2 of exercise. No weight loss yet 🙂 And I’m very sore. I spent an hour on the treadmill yesterday and angered a tendon in my ankle. A few years ago, I spent 6 weeks in a soft cast and I don’t want to go back there. So, today, I worked out on the exercise bike. That helped my ankle, but my arms are now sore. This too shall pass… The eating plan is pretty simple: eat every 2 hours, alternating a carb and a protein from the list. That will expand in a few weeks; this is the quick start program.
I’m still optimistic and have not deviated from the program. But, I’m dying for a piece of chocolate. I will wait until my 5 week check-in and decide after I see the results.
The pug is awake and demanding attention. Time to play!
That line stopped me dead in my tracks. We get so immersed in our day that we don’t notice most of what goes on around us. I like to operate in a straight line. Isn’t that the most efficient way? But my life meanders. So, when I stopped to think about the holiness surrounding me, I began a winding journey. While searching my bookcase for something else, I found Louise Hay’s book, “You can Heal Your Life.” That put me back on the affirmation path and my first two affirmations had to do with my weight. I’m 61 years old and no longer a size 10 and nothing seems to change that. A week or so after repeating the affirmations daily, my husband made an appointment for me with a personal trainer.
So, today was the big day. I listened closely because this guy knows what he is doing. He is a REAL trainer, not the 16 year old kid at the gym. I signed up for the nutrition program which gives me one free training session, use of his gym, a month’s worth of vitamins, and a heart monitor for one fee. No monthly gym fees and he will check me every 5 weeks to see how I am progressing – forever. I’m supposed to eat every 2 hours for the first 2 weeks. The plan looks like a lot of food, but we will see. I’m excited but scared. I’ve tried so many things and every year there’s a few more pounds. Will this work?